So many great things have happened in my life since I posted last. First great thing, my doctors have finally found the combination on medicine to help me. I haven't past out in almost 2 months and my heart rate is under control. I still have tummy issues but they are bearable now. Woop, Woop!!!
Second, and this is the greatest of all, I am a grandma!!!! Our precious baby Cayden made his appearance on December 17, 2011. He was born way too early due to complication with the pregnancy. He was 28 weeks gestation the day he was born. Mother and baby are doing good but there has been a couple of big bumps along the way and still a long road to travel in his healing. He is precious though and so beautiful.
This is his little foot being held by his mommy. He weighed in at 2lbs., 3oz. when born and was 14 1/4 inches long. He has long arms and legs like his daddy. (my oldest son) He is such a great blessing.
His birth has brought our family so many lessons. I have learned to have total Faith in God during my illness and I have often prayed that my husband and boys will learn to have the peace that I have when I am choosing to put my Faith in God. Cayden has brought that peace to them. They are wrestling with it, just like I did once, wrestling with having to put all worries and control on God's shoulders. I admit that it is a hard lesson to learn.
When you want something so bad that it aches in your heart all you want is for the pain to go away. His mommy aches to hold her child, his daddy aches from fear that if he gets too close to him the pain of loosing him will be unbearable, his grandpa aches for his oldest son's fears, and his grandma aches for his parents that are having to watch their first child go through so much in his short time on earth. Will he make it? Only God knows the answer to that question. "For I know the plans I have for you, " says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me." Jeremiah 29:11-13
I cannot fully explain the peace that I have in my heart. All I can say is that it is beautiful. That peace carries me from day to day even though there is so much going on in my life right now. Always look to the Lord for everything and remember, when things look dark, take a deep breath and thank God for all the great blessings he has given you. Even in the dark you will see his face if you seek it, and it is a beautiful face......