July 4th

We had such a great time in Northern Arkansas at my husbands Grandmother's.  She lives by the Buffalo River and she has a bunch of land so the boys & Cory rode 4 wheelers every day.  I stayed in the house with Cayden since the heat makes me pass out and messes with my heart.  Me and Cayden had fun though.  I love that little guy.  He is so perfect. (yes I could just be a little partial. :-) 

 He has such a sweet personality.  He smiles all the time and hardly ever cries.  You would think the little guy would just be so unhappy because of his horrible start to his life.  Being born at 28 weeks gestation, suffering 2 brain bleeds, brain damage, pulmonary bleed, and being on a vent for the first 2 months of his life.  He has scars all over his hands, wrists, arms, feet, and legs from all the IV's and PIC lines that were in him to save his life.  God has truly given us such a great blessing when he gave us Cayden.

My point to all of this is not to whine about Cayden.  My point is that we all have hard things we go through in our lives.  Season's that just knock us in a pit so deep and dark we don't know what to do.  God knows what we need and he always puts people in our lives that help lead us out of the pit.  Lord knows I have had lots of bough ts with self pity.  When we constantly think of how horrible our situation is we are missing out on all the miracles going on around us.  Cayden is my miracle.  If this tiny, sweet baby can push himself hard everyday doing therapy, struggling to drink a bottle because he aspirates so easy then I can push through all my pain and self pity.  

If there is no one in your life that inspires you to be better I encourage you to let yourself out there and find someone.  You can both encourage each other!!! Don't miss out on community and others who are going through rough times just like you are.  You won't be sorry you did.