It has been a really long week. This was my first week not working and I was admitted into Arkansas Heart Hospital on Monday and had a heart cath done on Tuesday. I was having severe chest pain and passed out 3 times Monday night so we went to the ER. I was kept overnight and my cardiologist wanted to do a heart cath just to make sure I didn't have any blockage or anything wrong with my arteries. Everything looked fine so now we are just going to concentrate on my SVT and coronary spasm issues.
I have come to realize that there are a bunch of things that are not worth my energy to worry about or even acknowledge. I worry way too much and my mind runs crazy sometimes. God has been humbling me through this whole experience. I would never ask for help from anyone before because I thought of myself as "strong". I could do it all. That is just vanity talking and pride. "Pride goeth before a fall". I really should memorize that verse. Pride is a sin and now that I cannot drive anymore I have had to ask lots of people if they can drive me places. It is so hard to let that part of me go. I know that God has a plan for my life and I have not been listening.
I have taped a couple of verses to my mirror in my bathroom so I will read them every time I look in the mirror. These verses will remind me that God is in control, not me. He is running the show and it's about time I sit back and enjoy the ride.